My memories

2010-09-26T16:59:00.002+08:00

Feeling happy that you are progressing fine
Feeling sad because your health isn't getting any better
Feeling relieved that you have moved on
Feeling sad because I'm still no where near you

1 more month till end of O level
Half a year more before we officially start our training
More hardship is coming our way
I've already prepared to shed tears for the 2 years ahead
But why am I crying now?

Because I'm afraid

I'll pray for you. Really I will.

2010-08-29T09:40:00.002+08:00

SERIOUSLY!!! JUST TRUST ME!!! THOUGH THE ROAD AHEAD LOOKS A BIT MISTY, A BIT UNCLEAR AND FULL OF DANGER, PLEASE DON'T WORRY. BECAUSE I'M NOT ALONE. JUST LET ME WALK THE PATH THAT I HAVE CHOSE, AND LET FATE DECIDE FOR ME THE ROAD AHEAD. I REALLY CANNOT STAND IT ANYMORE. TO ME, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I WILL STILL BE SILLY, BLUR SOTONG SHIHUI WHO HAS NEVER BEEN IN RELATIONSHIP OR ANYTHING!!! I'LL STILL BE ME!!! NOTHING IS IMPORTANT NOW, THE ONLY IMPORTANT THING IS: WHATEVER GOAL I MAY HAVE SET FOR MYSELF, I'LL MAKE SURE I FULFIL IT. LIVE WITH NO REGRETS, THAT'S HAS BEEN THE MOTTO I'VE BEEN LIVING BY. SINGING AND DANCING HAS BEEN MY PASSION FOR SO LONG, YOU CAN'T EXPECT ME TO JUST ABANDON MY DREAM BECAUSE THE OBSTACLES LOOK LIKE IT WILL ROB ME OF MY INNOCENCE. I HAVE MY MORALS TOO, SO PLEASE, JUST GIVE ME YOUR TRUST FOR ONCE. I WILL MAKE SURE I MAKE IT TO THE TOP AND MAKE YOU GIRLS PROUD THAT YOU HAVE LET ME GO.

2010-08-11T20:00:00.002+08:00

Pray that you will be okay. Pray that you will get well soon. All I can do for you is pray and pray and pray. It hurts my heart to see you sick, to see you ill, yet putting on a strong front just so that I won't worry. Hang on there, don't fall, I will always be behind you. I will pray for you, and wish that you will recover soon. I promise not to cry, as I know that my crying won't help a single thing. Please, just hang on......

2010-07-12T21:09:00.001+08:00

原来我在家中，连一只小狗都不如。好想离开，我讨厌这个只是名义上的家，因为他只不过是个屋顶，根本没有爱。它什么都没有。

5 more months

2010-07-04T22:12:00.002+08:00

Thanks, for letting me have a nice friend like you once. I've moved on, thanks to the help from my dear, and others around me. I'll always treat you like a good friend from now on, don't worry. More than anything, I don't wish to lose a friend.

5 more months left, I have no more time left. 10 000 hours, yet I'm still far from clocking that amount of hours. I'm trying my best now, so dear ah, just hang on a bit more. ILOVEYOU.

5 months, before we officially start on the new phrase of our life. Are we ready? I really don't know. All I know is, I'm giving it my 200%. And I'm sure not just me, but all 4 of us will.

不知所措

2010-06-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

当你以为一切都已经过去时, 却在这时顿然发现, 原来你一直认为是你身边最亲的人, 既然到最后变成了你的情敌时, 那种爱莫能助的心情, 我想, 应该很难理解吧. 原本以为, 是我多心了. 但是渐渐的, 我发现, 你已经渐渐动了情了. 我知道, 以我现在的立场来说, 我是没有权利去反对的. 所以现在, 我唯一能做的是, 祝福你们两位, 一定要幸福快乐哦!

给: 巧克力

当你觉得茫然, 无助是, 请你一定要记得,我会在这里陪伴着你, 陪你一起走处这些风风雨雨. 你的努力, 大家都看得到, 也感受的到, 但当你在路途上迷失了自己, 而接下来的路, 若显得特别啊遥远, 别担心, 我会一直陪你走下去的. 就算最后我们两人都偏体鳞伤, 一切都会是值得的. 应为只段路途, 是我们一起完成的.

在每一份成就的背后, 都有许多的汗水, 许多的眼泪, 许多的伤痕. 但是到最后, 当你看到自己的成就是, 一切便就值得了, 巧克力, 在坚持多一下下, 我已经在努力了. 再给我一点儿时间, 我很快就要到了. 到时, 我就能陪你一起分担你的负担了.

我爱你...........

From me to you

2010-06-03T21:26:00.003+08:00

For you, I learn to change myself. I tried to become the angel you would want me to be, tried my best to be the best angel you have ever seen. Yet I know that no matter how hard I try, under those pure white wings, the same old me is still there. I tried to drown my sorrows in bottles of wine, tried to think of how the sky seem so wide, but the same old truth is still there. I know that no matter how hard I try, you will never fall for me.

All I wished for was to hold your hands, to hear you talk about the many fun and sad stuff that has happen to you. I don't need you to hear my sorrows, nor do I need you to spend your precious hours with me all the time. I just want to hold your hands, to hold your hands, to hold your hands..... How many chances will one get, to just hold another person's hand. During that time, I would wish that time would stop, so that I would still be able to hold your hands......

All I can do now, is to look out for the next falling star, and pray for your safety, for your good health. Although I may have done it millions of time, I know that all my actions will never seem significant to you. But all I want to do is just to wish that you are happy. That way, I will be happy too.

No matter how hard I try, how hard I change myself, nothing will ever work. Although I know that holding on isn't the best option, it's the only option I have left. The many many stuff I want to say to you, I can never do it without leading to a snowball of consequences. So just leave me to stay by your side, to just be your guardian angel. The tears I might shed, I would do it in the dark. Because no matter how hard I cry, I will never hold a place in you heart.

Sorry. I love you......

Thoughts about Life

2010-05-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

In life, we might get numerous chances to meet a guy that we like. But seriously, how many chance do we get to be the guardian angel of that person? You might very likely realised that there will only be that one chance. Never have I thought that I could like a person till the extent of doing everything for him, or to even give him my 100% attention. All that I knew was, when you really like that person, even a simple word of thank you, or just a smile, could make you happy for the entire day. (That's what true love is about, isn't it?)

In life, we get to meet different people from all walks of life. Sometimes, we meet people who turn out to be our friends for eternity, sometimes we meet friends who just happen to pass by in our life, sometimes we meet people who leave an impact in our life. But whoever we met, it is actually fate that allows it to happen. Whenever you are feeling down, remember that your friends will always be the first one to appear, and would always be the one to stay by your side. If the going gets tough, true friends will stay in front of you, to clear the obstacles so that you would have an easier going. (That's what true friends are for, right?)

No matter where I might be, what I may do, please be assured I will still remember you, my dear friends. Even if the guy in my life jumps out as an obstacle for our friendship, please be assured that you girls would still come before him.

领悟。。。。。。

2010-04-12T21:18:00.006+08:00

原来真正会痛的
并不是被误解
而是不被谅解
曾经以为
家是全世界最温暖的地方
就算被世界遗弃
家人还是会站在你身边
但原来我错了
还错得很离谱
对不起
也许是我太天真了

曾经我是一个
天塌下来当被盖的人
但现在
却变成了一个只会学着在家里偷偷哭泣的女孩
而且只会把痛楚往心里藏
原来开朗的人
变得郁郁寡闻
那是真正的我吗？

无论我做得再好
永远
在你们眼中
只是一个会令你们丢脸
无法让你们骄傲的成就
我有再好的本领
也会变成你们泼冷水的对象
你说，我不会心灰意冷吗？

很累了
我厌倦了这个世界
很恨自己当年为何没有结束生命
也许一切的痛就会化为乌有了

巧克力：我真得很想你
再给我一点儿时间
我一定会达到你的要求的
对不起，我爱你。。。

Exasperated, but helpless

2009-11-29T23:00:00.002+08:00

最近事事似乎都不如意，一切事物好像冲着我来，让我无法招架，不知该如何应付。

如果你认为以言语上来攻击我，会让你心情好些，会让你觉得我的地位不如你的话，那你就继续你的人身攻击吧。莎士比亚说过：“成功的骗子不必靠说谎来求生，因为被欺骗的全成为他的拥护者。”我问心无愧，因为我原本就没错。如果说你还想继续如此下去，我只能说，请你积点儿口德。我已无话可说，也不想再做出任何的评论了。

作义工，让我看到了人性的丑陋，也让我掉过了无数的眼泪。你的工作，可能是要维持自序，但如果当你在工作的当儿却将义工给赶走，你的良心会过得去吗？说我们会堵住电动扶梯，却让分传单的人继续在那里，这样的行为，不就证明一切了吗？我哭了，是因为我发现，原来我们口口声声说的爱心，竟然比你的工作更重要。我失望，我绝望，可是更重要的是，我放弃了。一个人再努力的想散发爱心，如果没有人肯帮助他的话，那也应该没用了。

如果感情转淡了，放手，是对两人最好的决定。与其拼命的想握住，却发现已于事无补，那放手，是对双方最好的交代。这是我妈告诉我的，我也坚信这其中的道理。放手，是让对方有机会去寻找更好的另一半，更适合自己的另一半。虽然有些残忍，但我认为，这也是最好的了。虽然我不知道我会不会有那个勇气这样做，但我相信如果遇到这个情形，我应该也会这样。这是爱他的表现，也是对他的一种尊重。

与你所爱的人，应该存在着尊重，与自人空间。如果想要知道他的一切，却忘了顾及到他的隐私，这是会弄巧反拙的。我庆幸我有做到这点，也因为我跟他有着一种无法取代的关系，信任。信任对方，就能闯过一切考验。我们只要信任对方，再艰难也就无所谓了，不是吗？

To:　巧克力
好久没有你的消息，但遇到你时却是听到你那失落的声音。你不要难过，那些举止都是因为爱你。放下你所背负着的包裹，勇敢的闯向未来吧。２０１０年的来临，代表着一个新的开始，新的未来。我相信，我给你的生日礼物，会帮助你的，因为每一颗心心理，都是我满满的祝福。

最后的最后，让我的梦想，成为一个真实的故事吧。

Disappointment

2009-11-05T20:15:00.004+08:00

有没有试过，将满满的希望，寄托在某个人的身上，但最后才发现，其实他跟你说的，都是谎言，你的感觉，应该会像我一样，失望，失措，不知该如何是好。

我以为，我那时的疑虑，其实是我的多心，纯粹是想太多，但也许那时候已经是一个警铃，在告诉我，不要太盼望奇迹的出现。也许，若我那时候，发现他其实只是个幻觉，当时就松手让他走，或许，我现在就不会躲在一旁哭了。因为，当你真的很希望，那个奇迹出现的时候，而最后并没有，那种挫折感，真的很令人想哭。

可能你会不解，这也只不过是一个梦想，为何却这般失望？它对我来说，不仅仅是一个梦想那么简单。每次看到妈妈，那脸骄傲的表情，令我更加努力，更加努力的去学习。我想学长笛，学古典钢琴，不是因为我想炫耀，而是因为，我对音乐，有着非笔墨能形容的热忱。我想要超越我自己，弹奏或吹出动听的旋律。我想要在我的亲戚们面前，弹奏贝多芬的第九个交响曲，"Ode to Joy" 或是弹奏萧邦的“华丽大圆舞曲”，然后看着妈妈，骄傲的看着亲戚们，听着他们赞语。也许，这个想法，有点太过贪心，但若给我这个机会，我会做到最好，因为在我生命中，音乐是不可或缺的。"Ode to Joy", 我早在小六，在大提琴上演奏过了。但是，梦想终归梦想，不会实现，也不可能会实现。

也许你可能会问，我的梦想，到底是什么？我的梦想，是站在舞台上，唱出我的声音，我的歌。而且，不仅仅是我一人，而是与另外三位姐姐们，朝着共同的目标努力，一起去拼搏。一起被台下的粉丝给感动，一起哭，一起笑，一起生活。就算是到了台湾，没有父母在身边，在人身地不熟的环境里，因为知道有对方的存在，而不害怕。因为有彼此这样的依靠，而勇闯下去。创造出我们的名字，我们的风格，还有只属于我们和粉丝的泪水，以及那种信赖。这才是我的目标，我的梦想。

吴薇琪，再也不会是一个我需要躲躲藏藏来使用的名字。Angie吴薇琪，便会正式出现。我要让大家都听到，属于吴薇琪的歌，她的声音，她的努力。虽然距离这个梦想，已经更遥远了，但我还是要大声地告诉大家，“大家好，我是Angie吴薇琪。”到时，我要让这个名字变得响亮。我要树立一个好榜样，当义工，募款，慈善活动。我要用吴薇琪这个名字，让大家都散发爱心，帮助那些在世界各地都在受难，饿肚子的孩子。我一定也会去领养那些孩子，让他们又有一个额外的依靠。

但梦想依然还是被破灭了。现在，我只能多在我的想象力，利用我仅有的一点儿力量，去当义工，希望大家可以捐款。或许，这可能已经是我的宿命了吧。我只是不想承认吧了。

莎士比亚说过：“人们可支配自己的命运，若我们受制于人，那错不在于命运，而是在于我们自己”。虽然我希望这句话是真的，但我似乎已受制于人和命运。所以，也许，这就是我的宿命了。

巧克力，对不起，我没有达成我们的约定。我的软弱，我缺乏了信心，我没有办法去霖招一条路，来完成这个约定。对不起，我知道我很失败。没有达成协定，就代表，没办法再看见你，所以我在这里真心的祝福你，希望你会找到属于你的另一半，一个爱你的另一半。

泰戈尔也说过：“[可能]问[不可能]，你住在什么地方？[不可能]回答，在那无能为力的梦境中。” 原来无能为力的感觉，那么痛。。。

Typhoon Ketsana

2009-10-09T22:20:00.004+08:00

In providing humanitarian aid for the victims of Typhoon Ketsana, Mercy Relief will be having a fundraising activity on the 11th and 18th October. So if you happen to meet the volunteers anywhere on the island, please donate. Any amount is okay. Your help will be gladly appreciated. $1 is equivilant to 32.56 Pesos.

越来越多的天灾，似乎在向我们暗示，这个世界似乎要走到尾声了。我真的不敢想象，但世界结束，重新开始时，我还有没有哪个福分做我妈的女儿，我有没有可遇到我的好友。Jieyi, Alicia, Dawn, Winnie, Sarah. 这些只是那一大堆朋友中，其中一些罢了。无论如何，谢谢你们给过我的美好回忆，也希望我们在世界末日后，还能够做永远的朋友。

真的很抱歉，我竟然那么的相信你。相信你跟我说的，都能够成真。我本来可以躲在梦境中的，现在你连我做梦的权利都夺走了。我真的有点后悔，但同时也希望，你能够快点给我一个答复，让我重拾回那份梦想。因为你曾对我说过，梦想，要自己去争取。

巧克力，你最近还好吗？最近，似乎没在更新部落格，你知道我有多担心你吗？请你快点联络吧。我不想再一个人躲在被子里哭，不想再傻傻的什么都不能做。我觉得，我好没用，不能帮你，还要你那么操劳。我答应你，我会努力的。一定会。

“那些痛的记忆，躲在春的泥土里。滋养了大地，开出下一个花季。风中你的泪滴，滴滴落在回忆里。让我们取名叫作珍惜。”

When the sky just seem to cry

2009-08-22T22:17:00.006+08:00

I'M SAYING THIS ONCE AND I'M NOT SAYING IT AGAIN: I DON'T LIKE KEVIN TEO. SO JUST STOP GETTING YOUR BRAIN CELL DEAD TRYING TO CRACK YOUR MIND OVER HOW TO GET THE SHIT TRUTH OUT OF ME.

Dun understand whats wrong with ppl. Sure, maybe I was a little flirt, or lyk a lot of guys, but that was in the past, so get over it. Dun need to put words into my mouth and accused me of saying smth I didn't say. I already have someone I lyk, now till forever and I mean it. U can dun believe me if you want but that's a fact. Remarks: none taken. I have better things to do than to hear others talk rubbish.

人心，难道就像别人所说的那么邪恶吗?难道这世界上就没有人可以静静的聆听于相信，而且不会被别人的闲言闲语所动摇吗? 难道就没有人相信，这个世界上是有所谓的永恒的爱情吗？我好累，好累，我以没有那种力气去理会了，我也真的不知道该怎么做去让别人相信。像俊龙说的，只要你问心无愧，那就够了。但是，，当我看到我最相信的人，也同样的在怀疑是，心里的痛，无法形容。我只能说：请你相信，我真的没有变心。我对你的感觉，始终没变。

八八水灾，带走了无数人的性命，使许多人家破人亡，对生命顿时失去了方向。在这时，请各位有能力的人，伸出援手，带给这些灾民，一个活下去的希望。就算能量有限，一束光芒，或许就能使１０个小孩，重新站起来。不要吝啬，尽量的帮忙吧。你的每一份努力，我只能说：May God Bless You. 没法以金钱帮忙者，可祈祷，希望他们能够尽快，脱离水灾所带来的后遗症。

看到你努力的四处奔跑，为的就是要帮助那些灾民，甚至不顾自己的腿伤，我的心在流血，在痛。照顾自己，好吗？不要再让我，无时无刻的担心了。一切的道路，才刚开始。灾民的需要，不仅仅是现在所看到的而已。你倒下了，那我该怎么办？
TO: 巧克力

“你忘了啊？你交了一个绝顶聪明的男朋友，所以，不管你躲到哪里，我都会找到你。” 霹雳MIT

MERCY RELIEF

2009-08-13T20:23:00.003+08:00

PLEASE SUPPORT MERCY RELIEF AND DONATE TO THE 080809 HURRICANE IN TAIWAN. YOUR SUPPORT WILL BE APPRECIATED. MERCY RELIEF WILL BE STATIONED AT CHUA CHU KANG MRT STATION TILL THIS SUNDAY. FOR THE TAIWAN HURRICANE, YOU CAN DONATE TO RED CROSS. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

P.S: I"M A VOLUNTEER WITH MERCY RELIEF.

天灾的发生，请大家齐心合力的帮助他们渡过难关吧。无情的雨，只懂得要淋下，而不懂得要怎样去拯救。这不是个玩笑，各国以发动号令，想尽办法要帮助他们。就算只是区区$2, 但对那些灾民来说，就是继续活下去的希望。所以大家请尽一份力。我们活在新加坡，无任何天灾，丰衣足食，但可否想想，这个世界上，还有多少人在受苦，还有多少人因为没有食物而饿死。

若我们是那灾难的受害者，你可否知道，其他国家也都会发动救援，来帮助我们，那我们是不是也应该帮助其他国家呢？

巧克力这次也出动，决心要帮助那些灾民。所以，我也会尽我的一份力，在这里，帮助他。

P.S.S: 再微薄的力量，再小的捐款，对他们来说，就是一束光芒的存在。

P.S.S.S:　巧克力，要帮助是对的，但切忌，不要太操劳了。